okay.. about that last post.. it isn't between me and my grandmother.. godma thought it was (shall elaborate later) and texted me during work on friday.. well it's between her and my maid.. !@#$^

aniwaes.. other than my grandfather, basically i'm the only person who dares to talk back to her.. my grandmother that is.. fiona just doesn't bother doing that.. and my mom *shrugs*.. in my opinion she just doesn't dare.. but she claims that she just doesn't wanna create more trouble than wad's already brewing..

in my whole 19 (almost) years.. i've changed enough maids as it is.. i can safely say more than 10.. this isn't about my life being pampered cause i have a maid and stuff alrite.. the changing of maids were totally the cause of the said !@$% person.. i'm probably gonna get struck by lightning (that's what they say bout those who scold their elders) but wadeva.. and i really empathise with all the maids who have been through my house.. scoldings at mistakes is alright.. but my grandmother's mouth is like .. !@#$ get my drift? i'm very surprised that none of them has ever done anything extreme.. *choi* and her mind is super imaginative.. i mean like super.. okay.. up to this point, people like fiona, alicia and steph should know where this entry is heading.. towards the ranting, complaining and even the hate mail direction.. and it's gonna be truly vulgar.. so sue me. *rolls eyes* i'll try to censor it la alright..

this time round is my maid being accused of stealing.. stuff like wad? clothes.. un***********.. i have no idea wad else.. i mean like steal for what.. different size ok.. u are so *** and it's not even worth selling lor.. *rolls eyes* oh and consuming stuff without permission... woke up this morning to her angry voice and so i went into the kitchen and sat there and listen.. seeing if she dares to go too far.. then she asked me if i'd drank her apple cider vinegar.. and the conversation -in chinese- (i wouldn't even call it that) went like this..

M: did u drink my apple cider vinegar?
S: yes *rolls eyes* (of course she didn't see that.. else i won't hear the end of it)
M: u drink it everyday?
S: of coz not la.. i don't need to 'jian fei' .. *rolls eyes* (steph will probably say that my eyeballs have rolled out by now)
M: i only drank it less than 10 times.. but there's so little left now..
S: (i didn't have anything to sae to that)
M: rambles.. mutters about the apple cider vinegar.. and about admitting to drinking blablabla.. which she meant that my maid drank it and refuses to admit it.. wdf lor.. and the muttering continues.. non-stop.. repeat and repeat it tell you.. and there i was still sitting there.. feeling so damn exasperated.. but what do you want me to say.. soon after the maid went to do the washing in the toilet.. sobbing away in there too.. she told me that she really didn't drink.. etc.. yes i noe.. i didn't know what to say but just told her that i believed her and not to mind that !@#$ person..

after that when my grandfather came back, told him what happened and stuff.. sat beside me while i was watching tv.. and said something along the lines that my grandmother was crazy (both me and fiona were laughing nonstop at this), should send her to the m.hospital, should get godma to come and talk to her etc.. coz apparently, my mom won't dare to face her head-on.. and when my grandfather tries to reason with her, he gets scolded instead.. so sad right.. and he just sorta complained to me about her la.. lotsa stuff.. like ust last week when they went to chalet with some other people, she lost her wallet and i dunno wad happened but it ended up in her bag. i can like imagine her just accusing people and stuff.. in my opinion, if i could, i would say this to her.. 'zhuo ren zhuo dao zhe me lao le.. dan shi lian ji ben de zun jing dou de bu dao.. zhen shi ke lian..' *shakes head*.. she basically is a matraichal figure.. where her kids live in fear of her.. ok.. that's how i see it.. the women are more predominant in our family..

and being the oldest grandaughter, i guess i just coudn't stand her tyrannical and nonsensical ways.. i was somehow bold enough to 'ding zhui' and i have gotten myself into 'trouble' quite a few times because of that.. but if history were to repeat itself, i wouldn't have done anything different.. okay.. and i must admit that i have no 1.love 2.respect for her.. and she claims that what ever she did is always answerable to god and stuff... i'm so 'kill me first why don't u'.. okay.. that's very dramatic of me but *shrugs*

just last night or the last last night, my maid was in my mom's room taking about her being accused and stuff.. and there my parents were like ' don't care about her, as long as we know you didn't take it it's alright'.. like hello? that's so super helpful? if it were someone else that accused her, i think that would be a consolation.. but with my grandmother, she'd just keep harping on it and make u feel so damn miserable ok.. and my dad was saying like 'it's not that we believe her (my grandmother), we just don't wanna quarrel with her and just -qian jiu- her' bah..

ok.. that's me airing my family's dirty laundery in public.. i will so not delete this entry.. godma.. although you may have differing opinions...

in conclusion, she has a problem trusting people.. if you can't trust your maids, why hire them.. ?? f***